2019 started out pretty great - I enjoyed my job, had great friends, quickly met new ones at events and through Instagram; went to Florida to visit grandma and even went on my first ever work trip to New Orleans within the first 5 months of the year.
I was going to the gym regularly, seeing results, excited to announce my secret music project, and even revamped my blog and officially called it “The Pink Life”.
Somewhere along the way, I started to feel very disappointed with my life again. I have always struggled with anxiety so self doubt and negative thoughts are not new to me in any way, but I really struggled with myself the last half of 2019.
I had an amazing birthday in July, I had an exciting trip to Vancouver in August (where I almost got hit by a car and my phone DID get hit by a car - haha) - but when I returned, I was faced with some pretty tough feelings that came up and wouldn’t go away. Flash forward to November when I finally accepted the fact that I needed to do something about the way I was feeling and decided to seek help through therapy.
I am depressed and I am full of anxiety, and I am slowly learning how these things have caught up with me and how to cope with them.
I am writing this post today to share that no matter what, you can never give up on yourself or your dreams. I have thought many terrible things of myself, but I am learning to accept my flaws and look past them so that I can be a better version of myself. I want to continue to work on these things and hopefully transition into a happier and healthier Mik in 2020.
Sometimes I feel like I don’t have much to look forward to, but even the small things count. Just one day at a time, and don’t give up.
Looking forward to overcoming some self doubt and curbing my anxious thoughts in the new year. Here’s to 2020!
To read about my short reflection on the decade, check out my most recent Instagram post.
Thanks for reading today!
No comments :
Post a Comment